today...

...was such a good day! i haven't had a day when everything went my way in a WHILE.

• saw cinnamon chasers last night. so good~ (yesterday)
• started a private journal with ellz! (yesterday)
• got about 9 hours of sleep
• woke up and had a good work out in the morning
• somebody turned in my apartment keys that i lost the day before to the housing office
• our apartment got a new fridge because the other one broke yesterday
• my new glasses came in today and they look great! i'm in love with them~
• my new tattoos also look great! (result of spontaneity on part of me and chels on mon)
• had a really good falafel for lunch
• actually paid attention in polymers lecture
• chels bought me a delicious earl grey tea soy latte
• ordered tall sizes but the starbucks lady gave us grandes. wooT~
• had a major and fun study sesh with chels and got a lot finished. so productive!
• helped out with the impact video shoot for kollab which was fun
• ate a healthy and not guilty dinner of salad
• watched the beyonce documentary (which i HIGHLY recommend)

now going to bed because i took a melatonin. good night!

ain't nobody fresher than...

MY MFIN CLIQUE

♥

best compliment:

"you have phenomenal legs." 

worst compliment:

"you look so.....*fishing for any word but old*.......mature."

헐...ㅠㅠ

i don't wanna be 22 anymore.

luv deluxe

we can soar with love in the morning
feed your soul with love to the evening
expand your soul with love on the weekend
'cause love is all i got.

when will it end?!

damn. i'm 22.
don't think i've had a better birthday than this.

day 1. 2/14 valentine roses. sound remedy.
day 2. 2/15 sushi dinner with dad and bro. cosmolava
day 3. 2/16 piola. chris's house. ormsby's
day 4. 2/17 family dinner. publik
day 5. 2/18 shopping with ellie. antico. kilwin's
day 6. 2/20 ygtlc reunion pt. 1
day 7. 2/21 dinner with best friends
day 8. 2/22 tongue and groove
day 9. 2/23 ygtlc reunion pt. 2

gosh i have the prettiest and most kind-hearted friends :-)

tommy

i am the luckiest bitch in the worlddddddd
can't ask for a greater friend

tom,

you are the absolute best.

-jerry

who am i?

when i look back on my life and look at my life now, i feel like i'm living a lie. i've lost sight of who i used to be and how my dreams came to be. i used to be so ambitious. and now when people ask me if i figured out what i'm doing after graduation, i'm like LEAVE ME ALONE BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW. i get really sad because i feel like i'm a totally new person in good and bad ways. i've learned so much along the way but in essence, down in my very deep core, i hope i'm the same shy girl who didn't know how to make friends, who was afraid to talk in public, who was always curious searching searching searching for what the world had to offer. wanting to travel to as many countries as she could and having a story. an adventurous story. not a boring corporate story. i want to dance like a moron. i want to carve "sharon wuz here" into park benches. i want to meet random people and listen to their life stories. where did this sharon go? who am i? some days i don't even remember who sharon is anymore and i have to constantly remind myself of where i came from. my past was something i used to be so hurt by. after coming to college, it evolved into something that i was proud of because i learned so much from it: always moving around because we couldn't pay the rent, my alcoholic dad leaving us, my brother being sick as a baby, having to live apart from my mom for years because she didn't have enough money, reuniting with my mom and my brother only to learn my mom had cancer, living from meager paycheck to paycheck because my mom was too sick to work, being frustrated all the fucking time because we were so damn poor, hating my step dad so much that i wanted to die. i hated all this. but i loved all this. and the saddest part is that every day, i forget little by little.

fuck you very much.

a surprisingly fun weekend after the shittiest week in the world.
fun is more fun when spontaneous fun. does that make sense? haha whatever.

what our weekends consist of:
ellie: HAHAHA FUCKING JERRY
me: fuck youuuuuuuuu. but please baby, can i be your superman?
ellie: EWWWWWWWWW STFU
me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA DYING

sorry, we don't usually curse this much.

thoughts this weekend provoked: 

• i'm so over drama.
• i think my past has made me a bitter and ugly person.
• i'm super judgmental of myself more than others.
• sometimes i truly believe that i will never find someone who will love me. like truly love me. it makes me sad not because i won't find that person but because it's just proof that i'm a horrible horrible person. and you know how your soul mate is supposed to love your flaws and all? but my flaws are too horrible to love. yes i might be over exaggerating but i guess that's a flaw of mine, too.
• i just want someone to stay in with. listen to music, smoke, paint, cook, cuddle, watch parks and rec, laugh about stupid shit. someone who gives me pages of random doodles that they've been working on all day because they thought of me. someone who accepts me being the fucked up person that i am.
• hate it when a person who usually ignores me sees me out and invites me over to their table to have a drink with their buddies. THIS is what i wanna say to you and your bullshit hahaha the lyrics in the chorus are soooo perfect
• hate people who selectively talk to people.
• if you think you've had a hard life, other people probably have too. stop being so "woe is me" and maybe consider the fact that everyone is in the same tragic boat.
• i hope no one reads this shit, takes me super seriously, and gets offended lol oops

pretty much sums it up.

ok i feel better now.

only because i watched this video.
makes me think of everyone in the whole world and at our basic core, we are all the same. we want to just live our lives laughing. no more time for tears baby. oh and listening to this song made me want to dance therefore happy. 

some days i feel sad for no reason.
and i want everyone to leave me the fuck alone.

today is one of those days.




maybe it's the rain...