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MY MFIN CLIQUE

♥

when will it end?!

damn. i'm 22.
don't think i've had a better birthday than this.

day 1. 2/14 valentine roses. sound remedy.
day 2. 2/15 sushi dinner with dad and bro. cosmolava
day 3. 2/16 piola. chris's house. ormsby's
day 4. 2/17 family dinner. publik
day 5. 2/18 shopping with ellie. antico. kilwin's
day 6. 2/20 ygtlc reunion pt. 1
day 7. 2/21 dinner with best friends
day 8. 2/22 tongue and groove
day 9. 2/23 ygtlc reunion pt. 2

gosh i have the prettiest and most kind-hearted friends :-)

tommy

i am the luckiest bitch in the worlddddddd
can't ask for a greater friend

tom,

you are the absolute best.

-jerry

fuck you very much.

a surprisingly fun weekend after the shittiest week in the world.
fun is more fun when spontaneous fun. does that make sense? haha whatever.

what our weekends consist of:
ellie: HAHAHA FUCKING JERRY
me: fuck youuuuuuuuu. but please baby, can i be your superman?
ellie: EWWWWWWWWW STFU
me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA DYING

sorry, we don't usually curse this much.

thoughts this weekend provoked: 

• i'm so over drama.
• i think my past has made me a bitter and ugly person.
• i'm super judgmental of myself more than others.
• sometimes i truly believe that i will never find someone who will love me. like truly love me. it makes me sad not because i won't find that person but because it's just proof that i'm a horrible horrible person. and you know how your soul mate is supposed to love your flaws and all? but my flaws are too horrible to love. yes i might be over exaggerating but i guess that's a flaw of mine, too.
• i just want someone to stay in with. listen to music, smoke, paint, cook, cuddle, watch parks and rec, laugh about stupid shit. someone who gives me pages of random doodles that they've been working on all day because they thought of me. someone who accepts me being the fucked up person that i am.
• hate it when a person who usually ignores me sees me out and invites me over to their table to have a drink with their buddies. THIS is what i wanna say to you and your bullshit hahaha the lyrics in the chorus are soooo perfect
• hate people who selectively talk to people.
• if you think you've had a hard life, other people probably have too. stop being so "woe is me" and maybe consider the fact that everyone is in the same tragic boat.
• i hope no one reads this shit, takes me super seriously, and gets offended lol oops

pretty much sums it up.

happy 21st birthday, bff.

remember this?

this picture is a synopsis of our friendship. no words can describe our sisterhood, and countless is the amount of love, laughs, and tears that we shared. you cared when no one else did. you showed me what i did wrong when no one else would. you looked past my flaws and hoped for me. thank you God for bringing Jina into my life. "bff 4eva"? heck yeah. happy twenty-first birthday to my best friend.

i love you, jina lee ♥

for jina lee ... my cuppy cake ♥

when i see pictures of cupcakes, i always think of you first.
i don't know why. in my mind, jina = cupcakes.
i keep saving pictures of cupcakes and name them jina1, jina2, jina3, etc.
i know... i'm crazy.

i feel weird. pictorially, my mind is a huge chaotic mess. kinda like my closet if you've ever seen it. i'm kinda overwhelmed by the immensity of this upcoming end of the semester, studying for finals and trying to finish off freshman year with a bang.

and then, there's ... that.
and that other thing.
oh, and that.

why-oh-why is this all happening when i need to focus on my studies the most? why is it that even when i'm trying to study, these distracting thoughts drown out everything else? why do i even keep thinking about these things?! it's just crazy--hitting me hard and no room to breathe. what to do, what to do. i want to forget about everything. take back a lot of stuff. and just study.

i absolutely have the bestest friend in the world. not only because she's fun to chill with, not only because i can trust her, not only because she makes me laugh, not only because she bakes me yummy treats. but because she cares about me and in the simplest acts, she really shows it.
i really love jina. i really do.

my mom.
seriously, the best mom in the world.
she's one of my best friends, mentors, and someone i hold the utmost respect for.

예닮 & 예찬
the best little brother anyone could ever ask for.
i'm so thankful and lucky to have you.
plus, we have the coolest sibling names ever. hands down.

this is for all the ones i love. i quit. and i surrender.
i want to live life with no regrets.
it happens. but we all learn.
relapse and resurrection.

the roots are deep, the covenant is solid, the love is sweet. life is hard and You are good.

and i know for a fact You'll never let me go. bring me back to You.