secrets are for sharing.

1. eye smiles make my heart flutter, so do boys who wear cute hipster glasses.
2. i like being called by my korean name. however, i can count on one hand the number of people who call me yedam.
3. i use exactly 3 sheets of toilet paper every wipe. i secretly get mad at people who use more than three.
4. sometimes i wish i could drop everything engineering-related and just go to culinary school. 
5. i absolutely love the sound of film camera shutter clicks. i think it's my favorite sound.
6. i wish i was blonde.
7. breakfast is my favorite meal of the day.
8. i am _____________.

me in my cute hipster glasses. hey, we could match! ;)

disoriented.

i think i've become numb to a lot of things, even some things that i shouldn't become numb to: relationships, God, life. in high school, i cared so much about what others thought about me, my physical image, my reputation. not that i don't care now, but i just don't make a conscious effort anymore to build up this facade-this character that i aspire to be in all its loveliness. instead, the reality is that it is inexhaustibly tiring to be someone everyone loves. catering to everyone's needs and expectations is an inevitable tumble into depression and confusion about who you really are and what you thought you knew about yourself. here are some things i know about myself:

• i love being alone, but i hate feeling lonely.
• i tend to forget things in the past, and i don't know if that's a good or bad thing.
• therefore, i look to the future.
• i am ambitious, but my spirit is weak.
• i like to indulge in things, but i also know how to control.
• it's always all about incentives.
• i doubt, doubt, doubt.
• i am good at abandoning things, people, feelings.
• i'm not particularly proud of the above.
• i still don't know myself.

fly away

i've been realizing a lot of things about myself.
insight that can only come from somewhere over the rainbow. hmm.

- i love mellow music
- chillin' is probably my favorite thing to do
- i'm an escapist
- many goals and under-motivated
- attn span of a pea-brained animal
- dream chaser
- i love to explore
- i am a great visualizer, it's how my brain works
- i am sensitive, emotional, attached
- i front
- i pretend
- i care
- i hate myself for caring
- weak, so weak
- i like the easy way out, but i complicate things
- i disappoint myself a lot
- if i could drop everything and move to another continent, i would
- i am indecisive
- i over think everything
- i am observant, VERY observant
- i observe things and situations in technical terms (truly a techie)
- i am impatient (i already knew this one)
- tied down by obligations
- i love taking a step back, seeing how big the world really is
- i feel insignificant


will i ever be free?

green tea latte, oh how i love you so.

hello there.

SO I have this new obsession: green tea latte. I've been drinking a green tea latte every day for the past five days now. From Starbucks, to Hansel & Gretel, to Mozart Bakery, I have to have my green tea latte. It's addicting. Why? Why? Why? Tis nothing but empty calories and 20 more minutes of running at the gym, yet so yum yum in my tum tum :) Anyway, I'm just rambling about my day. Wintre break births my lack of productivity, and my lack of productivity births blog posts like these. The past few days have been almost all the same: shopping endlessly, sitting for 2+ hours at cafes, catching up with old friends, trying to enjoy the last moments before another round of hell, ahem I mean school. Wednesday was Jina and April's turn. Thursday was Erin's turn. Friday was Michelle's and Vivian and Jacklyn's turn. So who's next? Look no further! Set up your appointment here, haha. Just kidding. But I love just sitting in cafes for hours just talking. This also spurs my green tea latte fetish >__<

To make this blog post more enjoyable (maybe even more bearable), I'll write a few fun facts about myself!

1. I have an abnormal obsession with giraffes. They are my favorite animal, and I think that they are UH-DORABLE. I have lots of pictures of giraffes in my room and several giraffe dolls.
2. I love Chipotle and frozen yogurt. I could seriously live off of those two foods. I think green tea lattes might be joining the list soon.
3. Fashion = ♥. Even though I'm not a hardcore runway fanatic, I love looking at clothes, shoes, accessories, etc. I think I'm one of the most girliest out of all of my friends. I love dressing up for nothing. I purely dress up to enjoy it myself, and I have this belief that I'll have a good day when I wear a cute outfit. Ok, maybe not purely. Hey, I want to look nice, ok? Oh, and I'm a vintage junkie ;)
   
4. Cute and beautiful stuff make me scream or cry. Hahaha. Things like Pandora and bored french bulldogs.
5. My best friend is Jina. She disgusts me. 
6. I attend the 7th best public university, the 4th best engineering school, 1st ranked school for my Materials Science and Engineering major, and the 2nd most depressed school. Welcome to Tech.
7. I have this heart for children in third-world countries. Check out OneMillionCan! You can help by texting OMC to 20222 to donate $5 to help build refugee communities for the Ugandan women and children! 
8. This is my favorite/lucky number.
9. I love to laugh.

So there you have it, folks. A lil' chip off the ol' statue.
Here are some cute things ya'll can cry about ...

Ciao baby!