2:11 PM, february 20, 2011
i've been having recurring nightmares of what used to be. retracing my steps, right into this inner torment and uncontrollable floods of emotion. shame? regret? wary? of what? knowing eyes or my own falters? i turn crazy, hysterical even, over the fading whispers. and again, i am caught up in this fight...with myself. i am losing my identity within this chaos, piece by piece handed over to my self-loathing.