"i am free in my 

distinctiveness, 

not in my 

conformity."

there is so much hypocrisy, criticism, hatred all around me. it's so hard to ignore. i am so disappointed and dissatisfied by what this world has to offer. temptations, emotions, and oh, especially people around me. they search for the meaning and purpose of life and ask "where is the love?" but make no initiative whatsoever to change their lifestyle or way of thought. i do understand that there are reasons sometimes. solely, the idea of change chase people away. for some, the absence of comfort. and others, the alteration of a routined lifestyle. amidst all this darkness, i really want to shine. there's this deep yearning for change, for reformation, for distinction. God has been really tugging on the strings of my heart lately. 

despite all this... 

i want to express my gratitude to God. many of you do not know, but our family business went bankrupt a few months ago and still currently, we have no source of income. we are working to open up a new business but it will take several months. i have been working endless hours on this project to help support my family. anyway, i was very very worried that i could not go to school this semester. my residency status was this huge issue for my financial aid but they were able to verify everything in time. so now i am at school. however, i was worried that i would have to pay a lot of money for school this year. i ended up taking out a few loans and what not. BUT i went to the financial aid office a few days ago and they told me i was given a full tuition scholarship and granted a sumptuous stipend for this year again. THANK THE LORD. so i canceled my loans, and alas, a huge financial burden is lifted off my back since my parents don't pay a single penny for my post-secondary education. i do know that there are other people who are going through so much financial burden than i am. i know who you are, and i am praying for you. but seriously God. You are amazing!

hope everyone had a good first week of school! everyone, 화이팅~  :)

p.s. i sprained my ankle on the same day that my financial aid stuff was all figured out. talk about bittersweet! well, more sweet than bitter. but i can't play volleyball or workout for a few weeks. plus, i have a golfball bulging out of my left ankle. bleh -_- ... still praising God!