wouldn't it be nice

with God, anything is possible. but i feel like i fail in many aspects of my life. it's so difficult to manage that precarious balance between church, school, friends, and family. too much to handle for me, maybe? i seem to favor one thing out the rest. it's hard to tend to all components equally. again, i'm starting to depend on myself more than on God. my life is so chaotic right now. i never thought summer could be so busy. i'm so swamped lately that i can't find the time to really relax and spend time with Him. i want to stay home and sleep. i want to have time to finish all the books i bought and borrowed this summer. i want to have time to talk to God. one day, i really want to just drive to the park, sit in solitude, and meditate on life. i would go running in the park, play at the playground with random kids, and breathe in some fresh morning air. maybe even paint outdoor or go on a photography outing. i would go home, eat some good homemade food, drink iced green tea, and go read a book by a quiet poolside. then i would stay home, clean my room, and watch the sunset from my room. that'd be an ideal day :)