on a whim

one of my new year's resolutions for twenty-ten was to do anything and everything, sans the bad schtuff of course. just trying to latch onto the spirit of spontaneity and have more "don't think and do" moments in order to experience and really live life. cause life is short, nawmeen? and so i did this ...

i cut myself a fringe. how you like me now?!

oh hayyyyyyyy audrey~ wasaaahhhb :)

jina watched me do it via skype. it was quite a scream fest, haha. i'm not quite sure if i'll keep this hairstyle up after it grows out though. i've never had hair on my face before, haha. maybe it just takes some getting used to. took a lot of will to resist the urge to pin back my bangs this morning before i went out. but the many compliments i received today encouraged me. thanks yall!!!

anyway, life's been good. in a sense of where i am spiritually and on the pathway to becoming an adult, i can sincerely say that i'm headed in the right direction. even in my family's financial situation right now, i'm not worried. i should be. but i'm not. why? because i've become more accepting of God's will for my life. every day, i hand Him a piece of my life, "here God, take it." the more pieces i hand Him, the more i feel at peace with myself. i can physically feel God's tremendous love abounding within me. it's overflowing. so much that i have to share this love with others. i've become more accepting of others who i used to judge all the time. worldly pleasures, they fade. i come to appreciate the little things. the closer i get to God, the more i come to thank Him for everything in my life, the good and the bad. because without the bad, i would've never learned.

"Good judgment comes from experience, 

and often experience comes from bad judgment."

thank you God for making me learn the hard way. but of course, being the o.c.d., always worried, neat freak that i am, i still have that whisper in the back of my mind. it's no longer a voice, but a whisper. but i can still hear it. i must pray pray pray. "they say what goes up must come down, but don't let me fall."

how is everyone else doing?